There are times where I feel unsure about whether or not I should be content with where I am presently in my love life.
I feel thankful for all of the shit that I had to go through in the relationship department because it really toughened me up. The cheaters. The liars. The decisions. The I’m-torn-between-doing-the-right-thing-and-doing-what-feels-right situations. Broken hearts and breaking hearts. It all hurt, but as they say, “experience is good no matter how much it hurts.”
At the same time, I feel like all my experiences make it more difficult for me to fall in love or in like with a person. And no, it’s not that stupid bullshit excuse “omg i can’t trust anyone anymore~~~” kind of deal, it’s more of a situation where I feel as if I have to be cautious about everything because I know how to analyze text messages now, I can read facial expressions now, I know when to ask questions and when to just leave things alone.
Maybe it’s better to be vulnerable and gullible sometimes. I don’t know.
Ever had that? Ever received a text message from someone, whether you woke up to it, got it during the day or before you ended your night & you looked at your phone & saw this long message, filled with words that hurt you, that completely changed your mood, that stopped you from breathing & put you in total disbelief? That everything you guys went through just ended by that text message? Crazy how a simple text message can make you feel complicated inside.